The real meaning of Self control

[Capucine Jourel]

She had sneaked out. She wasn't sure how she had done it, but she was out of the vampire castle. She knew Shane wouldn't be happy about this, which is why she wasn't planning on telling him. She just had to tell Myra what was going on, at least relay the message. This was absolutely ridiculous.

It was night of course, and the sky was clear so the moonlight shone brightly on the mortal village. She stopped at the corner of a street for a moment. This was the first time she was really experiencing the feeling of her vampiric body. And it felt great. She had so much energy, she felt invincible. She could smell anything and everything, but thankfully, the mixing and confusion of all the different smells on the street prevented her from getting focused on one and hungering for blood. So far, that hadn't been a problem, but that peace wouldn't last forever.

She stopped at the house and in only a moment, she was in the children's room. The baby was fast asleep, but the little boy that she loved so much seemed to sense her presence. He sat up in bed as she sat down on the chair at the other end of the room. "Capu? Is that you? We were worried." Capucine smiled gently. "Yes, it's me...I want you to tell your mother I can't come anymore" she knew that Myra would've freaked at the sight of Capu as a vampire, and she had remembered how the boy was so accepting of Zeion. She hoped it would be the same for her.

"Capu, you're so pale...but you're beautiful" she smiled again, and as he tried to get out of bed to come up to her, she ordered him to stop. His human smell as he moved filtered into the air and she was beginning to feel pangs in her chest and throat. "Don't move, please" the boy obeyed. "Just tell your mother I won't be able to be here for a while. Tell her what you saw tonight. I'm not the same as I was before ok?" the boy seemed confused and asked why, but she didn't give an answer. Her hands were beginning to shake and she had stopped breathing a while ago.

In a sudden movement, she jumped out the window and found herself crouching on the street. She hadn't hurt herself, but her eyes had turned read and she clutched at her chest desperately. Oh please let somebody come that'll prevent me from hurting anybody she gulped furiously and just couldn't stop thinking of the feeling of being bitten and how horrible it was.

[Zeion the Angel of Chaos]

Zeion however was nowhere to be seend at least not until now. He felt better about everything he had found out Arkile was alive. This was a great night but he returned to leave th elder of the village a note. That is when he saw Capuince agian."Capucine?"He asked he saw her and knew instantly what happened."Turned I see. Well it looks like we'll be seeing a lot more of eachother Cap."He said and sat next to her and showed her the note.

It read:

Dear village elder,

I am sorry about leaving so soon but I have found out Arkile, the presumbed dead vampier queen, I am sorry but now I have a duty to serve her as a bodyguard. I will do my best to make sure the humans are not attacked. Sorry about the duty to vampiers but it's an oath I made to the old vampier king that ruled before Arkile.

Signed,
Zeion angel of Chaos.

"See Capucine I must go to the vampier castle. by the look of you...you want blood? Listen Elves are better. Arkile says it's much more filling."He said and looked at her smiling he has changed but only for the dark side again his eyes and hair the same but his personality was differant just meaner.

[Capucine Jourel]

She immediately noticed the voice as Zeion's. Good. Someone who would stop her right? She remembered him speaking about protecting humans, she just hoped everything would end alright. But then when he spoke, it simply made her angry.

"How could you be taking this so casually?" she almost yelled at him, her fangs showing as her eyes simply became redder with the increase in her thirst. She pushed the note away without reading it, her hand immediately returning back to her chest as though that would stop her from doing anything brash.

She almost cried when he told her how elves were more filling. How could he say that? And Arkile...she remembered her as his love...was that right? She couldn't really think clearly. "The last thing I want is for someone to tell me what something tastes like." she really did yell this time, tears streaming down her face "I don't want to hurt anyone!! It hurt bad enough when he turned me!"

I need to get back to the castle before I go mad. She stood up and caught her breath again. She had forgotten where the castle was already. She tried to think. This way...I think she simply began walking, avoiding Zeion as she simply began making her way. She wiped away the tears on her face with a swift hand. A door nearby opened, and a young man came out. She found herself pinning him to the wall in an instant. He tried to struggle from her grip, but her new vampire body proved too strong for him, as well as her own will power. Her fangs grew suddenly as they dug into the flesh of his neck. Maybe she could stop....before she drank too much. She didn't need to kill him....but she couldn't stop either.

I hate this

[Zeion the Angel of Chaos]

Zeion noticed how she acted but he placed the note on the elder's door his wings spread and he was off to the castle. He stopped and yelled hoping she'd hear him."This WAY!"He said and flew slowly so she'd catch up. He could already see the caslte from where he was..

[Capucine Jourel]

She felt like she had taken her fill and was finally able to set him free. Her body had been placated with blood, but unfortunately, when she the boy’s body drop to the ground, blood trickling down his neck, the thought of what she had just done disgusted her. She backed away, tears streaming down her face. He was dead. She was sure of it. Or if he wasn’t, he was dying. There was nothing she could do. She refused to change him. The burden of the pain she had succumbed to was to vivid a memory to allow her to do such a thing to someone else.

She caught sight of Zeion flying nearby. He had shouted for her to follow him. He was going to the castle, and she had no choice but to follow. She began running to catch up to him, and it took a lot less time than she had expected. She then remembered that vampires had great speed, and she had that power now too. She would have enjoyed this strange experience if she hadn’t been wiping the blood from her mouth. She wanted to throw up. I can’t believe….I killed a man. What would she tell Shane? Would he be mad at her for leaving…for killing?

What the hell am I doing? her death might be waiting for her at that castle, but she was a vampire now. That was where she belonged right? If not in the castle, at least in the vampire Kingdom. She definitely could not live among mortals anymore. She would not go back. Ever.